peanutmiss Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of ...
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Joined On: July 15, 2005
Seeking: Men
Looking for: Tell you later
Age/Gender 59 year old Woman
Location: Elk City, OK
Height: 5'9"
Body: Average
Race: White
Religion: Spiritual
Languages: English
Income: Tell you later
Profession: Administrative
Education: Some College
Status: Currently Dating
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what you should know about me

I once read somewhere, that 'the definition of insanity is repeating the same behaviour and expecting different results'. I am sure no truer statement was ever made. I also realize that as I age, I find it is harder and harder to change, so does that make me insane? Probably! I also realize that change is good for the soul, so perhaps this is my year. I will only be 50 once and since I am now on the backside of that......I better hurry my patootie up!!! So this year is my year. My year to make peace with myself to become who I am finally gonna be. I hope and pray I do not ever stop learning, but, I sure do hope that I stop falling on my butt daily! I have a GREAT tendency to 'Open Mouth, Insert Feet' both of em and the ankles to boot. I let very few people get truly close to me and that is a shame. There are folks out there that could and would enhance my life if I would but 'take a chance'.

I have been single for 12 yrs now and I am not sure that I would ever care to marry again.....but.....if I never hear the sound of another heartbeat coming into sync with mine as we drift off to sleep, I will have missed out on one of life's greatest miracles. The act of truly connecting with someone. Just once in this lifetime, I want to be in love. Truly and beyond a shadow of a doubt. I want the frustrations of not understanding my partner but accepting him anyway. I want to feel him get aggravated at me because I am insisting he stop and ask for directions!!! I want to yell at him that the screen door is broken and he has been promising to fix it for months! I want him to whine 'chicken again'. I want to hear him sigh just before falling to sleep and reaching for me in the night, just to know that I am there. I want to feel that glow that starts at the toes and ends up, God knows where, but leaving me knowing that life is mine!

I would like to forgive and be forgiven. I want the last half of my life to be what I am remembered for. I want to laugh!

who i want to meet here

I FOUND MINE! But as I enjoy the chat rooms and forums, gonna stay put! It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare dream of meeting your heart's longing. It doesn't interest me how aged you are. I want to know if you will risk looking the fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive. It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your sorrow, if you have been opened up by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, or to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can betray another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. I want to know if you can be faithful and therefore be trustworthy. I want to know if you can see beauty even when it's not a pretty day, and if you can source your life from God's presence. I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver light of a full moon, "Yes!" It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after a night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done for the children. It doesn't matter who you are, or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back. It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself, and if you like the company! Simple, ain't it?

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